I came here to start a new life, yet the birth pangs caught me off guard, clutching my insides with more force than I thought possible.  It took my former self and previous life and twisted it, releasing my fears and insecurities in an unexpected flood.  I’m sorry.  I didn’t realize how much of the past I had been holding onto.  It’s taken some time to see clearly — one thing is for sure:  birth is a messy process.